July 29th 2010
"Almond Joy's got nuts, Mounds don't" - How's Your Self Talk Working?
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by primarythoughts.net on October 5, 2009, 8:32 am in General
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Journey into the mind that produces Primary Thoughts. What goes on in my head as I write the words you read each week? Is my writing always a systematic process created from detailed research or is it a collection of thoughts transcribed from the voice in my head (represented by italicized script)? I will let you be the judge.
In August, I tweeted “I value my time; much more important than money. If I could create Melanie hours while everything else stood still I'd be straight.” As soon as I hit send, my mind revisited the book that I started to read years ago… about procrastination, one that I never finished. I started to go back and delete the tweet. I didn’t want you to read it, but I changed my mind. Since then, the unread book has been weighing heavy on my mind. My somber heart feels the shame. My sin was out there in the airwaves for you and everyone else to read.
I wish I could remember the name of the book that I came across. I often think that I must still have it on my bookshelves, lost in the midst of the other partially read great books. I think you would benefit from it immensely. Guilt seeps in… unread books with possible answers to the difficulties in my life. I wonder if the Champ sees this as a red flag... There was something about the writer. They wrote with such conviction. When I read the first couple of chapters of the book, it put my problem with procrastination in a whole new light. I felt such disappointment when I realized I had no clue it was a sin. How did I not know? That is what makes me think that you might gain understanding from reading a blog about the book.
I've put off writing this blog because the thought of not being able to locate an unfinished book on procrastination almost makes me cry. In contrast, “I value my time; much more than money” screams I value myself! I have self-worth! Hmm, it's the beginning of October. It took me over a month to start working on understanding this. Nix the negative talk! Ok, I should think of this as a glass half full. It’s been years since I was enlightened slightly by the book. I had little self-worth back then. It’s only been a month since my tweet and new realization that. I. need. to. figure. this. out. Humph… Why is my self-worth just showing up? Well, if I really had valued my time I would have been more diligent with my time this weekend. This weekend has me wiped out… not much was accomplished Saturday and I’ve slept most of the Sunday away.
Even as I write this blog for you now, I struggle. Once I got myself in front of the computer I uploaded some pictures and cleaned out my email inbox. I like to rid myself of the clutter. It gets my mind right, so I can be clear with my thoughts to you. Have I eaten? I should stop and eat something. Melanie – you’re just trying to find a reason not to write. No, I should really eat. I’ve got to take care of myself, my health. I wonder what the Champ is doing... I opened my document and started the writing process; jotted down a couple of thoughts. Can you jot electronically? Oh yeah, it’s Kenneth’s birthday. I should at least drop him a quick call. Call could take too long. Maybe he won’t answer. I could leave a message. Man! It’s Sunday. I’m supposed to call my coach, Michael. Ok, that takes precedence. Will he answer? He probably will. If he does, I’ll limit myself to 30 minutes. No answer. Whew! Ok, let’s roll the dice. Cool – Happy Birthday message has been delivered. Melanie – this is pathetic, you’ve got to do better with your time. Hmm… I think this is going to be a good blog - great topic. How can I mesh "self talk" and "procrastination"? I need to figure this out for myself, but I hope it helps you, as well. I should wash my face. I still didn’t get all of the mascara off my eyelashes. Ok, I’ll think about what I want to write while I wash my face. What should I call the blog? I want it to grab your attention, so you will be sure to read it. I’ll call it “Self Talk” for now. Let me see if I can find a sermon online that reminds me of the book. Mmm... there’s an Almond Joy on top of the microwave. Come on, Melanie! You need to stop! Too bad I never finished that book. That would make this so much easier. This is a great start though; you’re going to like reading this. That candy bar hit the spot, but I’m thirsty. Orange Juice? I think I am out of excuses now.
What writing style do you feel like reading this time around? I always ask questions at the end of paragraphs. Let me go back up here and rewrite this a bit. Better. If I could give us the answer to my problem, I could deliver a serious scripture-filled blog and tell you exactly how I struggle with it. A tell it how it is style. Do you feel like reading something more spiritual? Should I take the time to research a sermon that really speaks to me? I’ve never claimed to be a biblical scholar, but at least I could provide a link within the blog. Melanie, you know you will spend too much time looking for a link and you won’t finish the blog. I’ll just find a quick quote. Ahh, my baby is calling me; once I tell him I’m writing he’s going to make us get off the phone. Man. Well, I was right, back to writing. Or do you feel like a little humor? Ump… there is the question at the end of the paragraph… Lol. Oh, well.
“Procrastination is my sin. It brings me naught but sorrow. I know that I should stop it. In fact, I will--tomorrow!” ~ Gloria Pitzer
For the life of me, I can’t remember the explicit details of the book that I started to read. The main topic was about procrastination being a sin. That's a good quote, don't you think? Tee he he, humor… a friend of mine said I was a nut last night. What was that old Almond Joy jingle? Back to the internet I go... “Sometimes you feel like a nut, sometimes you don’t. Almond Joy’s got nuts, Mounds don’t” I’m doing the running man on my couch! I wonder if my son can teach me the jerk... Lol. You’re going to love the title of this blog and some keywords come to mind from the book… I will share those with you.
Disrespect for the Lord’s time was part of the book’s message which is why I felt guilt and shame from my tweet. How dare I declare that God didn’t create enough hours in the day for me to accomplish my tasks? I need “Melanie hours?” Really – such disrespect towards my creator. Please forgive me, Lord.
Self-worth was part of it. We all know that our self-worth should be placed firmly in our relationship with God. Apparently, I need to allow more God back into my worth, so that I don’t just say “Lord, let me hear your voice for all I am is from you.” I need to live it. I know it’s the God in us that brings value to our lives.
The last thing that I recall the book covering was thievery. When we don’t cherish the time that God has given us, we are basically stealing His time. We are here for God’s purpose and we should be working towards the fulfillment of our calling. If I really valued “my time”, I would value “God’s time” and the gifts that He has given me.
I believe I know God’s calling on my life. I struggle to work at it every day and through my struggle, I overcome. I wonder if they will realize that my procrastination and directly, the candy bar distraction brought about the writing style and title... I guess God made me who I am for a reason (smiling). I will not give up. For all that I am is from God.
In August, I tweeted “I value my time; much more important than money. If I could create Melanie hours while everything else stood still I'd be straight.” As soon as I hit send, my mind revisited the book that I started to read years ago… about procrastination, one that I never finished. I started to go back and delete the tweet. I didn’t want you to read it, but I changed my mind. Since then, the unread book has been weighing heavy on my mind. My somber heart feels the shame. My sin was out there in the airwaves for you and everyone else to read.
I wish I could remember the name of the book that I came across. I often think that I must still have it on my bookshelves, lost in the midst of the other partially read great books. I think you would benefit from it immensely. Guilt seeps in… unread books with possible answers to the difficulties in my life. I wonder if the Champ sees this as a red flag... There was something about the writer. They wrote with such conviction. When I read the first couple of chapters of the book, it put my problem with procrastination in a whole new light. I felt such disappointment when I realized I had no clue it was a sin. How did I not know? That is what makes me think that you might gain understanding from reading a blog about the book.
I've put off writing this blog because the thought of not being able to locate an unfinished book on procrastination almost makes me cry. In contrast, “I value my time; much more than money” screams I value myself! I have self-worth! Hmm, it's the beginning of October. It took me over a month to start working on understanding this. Nix the negative talk! Ok, I should think of this as a glass half full. It’s been years since I was enlightened slightly by the book. I had little self-worth back then. It’s only been a month since my tweet and new realization that. I. need. to. figure. this. out. Humph… Why is my self-worth just showing up? Well, if I really had valued my time I would have been more diligent with my time this weekend. This weekend has me wiped out… not much was accomplished Saturday and I’ve slept most of the Sunday away.
Even as I write this blog for you now, I struggle. Once I got myself in front of the computer I uploaded some pictures and cleaned out my email inbox. I like to rid myself of the clutter. It gets my mind right, so I can be clear with my thoughts to you. Have I eaten? I should stop and eat something. Melanie – you’re just trying to find a reason not to write. No, I should really eat. I’ve got to take care of myself, my health. I wonder what the Champ is doing... I opened my document and started the writing process; jotted down a couple of thoughts. Can you jot electronically? Oh yeah, it’s Kenneth’s birthday. I should at least drop him a quick call. Call could take too long. Maybe he won’t answer. I could leave a message. Man! It’s Sunday. I’m supposed to call my coach, Michael. Ok, that takes precedence. Will he answer? He probably will. If he does, I’ll limit myself to 30 minutes. No answer. Whew! Ok, let’s roll the dice. Cool – Happy Birthday message has been delivered. Melanie – this is pathetic, you’ve got to do better with your time. Hmm… I think this is going to be a good blog - great topic. How can I mesh "self talk" and "procrastination"? I need to figure this out for myself, but I hope it helps you, as well. I should wash my face. I still didn’t get all of the mascara off my eyelashes. Ok, I’ll think about what I want to write while I wash my face. What should I call the blog? I want it to grab your attention, so you will be sure to read it. I’ll call it “Self Talk” for now. Let me see if I can find a sermon online that reminds me of the book. Mmm... there’s an Almond Joy on top of the microwave. Come on, Melanie! You need to stop! Too bad I never finished that book. That would make this so much easier. This is a great start though; you’re going to like reading this. That candy bar hit the spot, but I’m thirsty. Orange Juice? I think I am out of excuses now.
What writing style do you feel like reading this time around? I always ask questions at the end of paragraphs. Let me go back up here and rewrite this a bit. Better. If I could give us the answer to my problem, I could deliver a serious scripture-filled blog and tell you exactly how I struggle with it. A tell it how it is style. Do you feel like reading something more spiritual? Should I take the time to research a sermon that really speaks to me? I’ve never claimed to be a biblical scholar, but at least I could provide a link within the blog. Melanie, you know you will spend too much time looking for a link and you won’t finish the blog. I’ll just find a quick quote. Ahh, my baby is calling me; once I tell him I’m writing he’s going to make us get off the phone. Man. Well, I was right, back to writing. Or do you feel like a little humor? Ump… there is the question at the end of the paragraph… Lol. Oh, well.
“Procrastination is my sin. It brings me naught but sorrow. I know that I should stop it. In fact, I will--tomorrow!” ~ Gloria Pitzer
For the life of me, I can’t remember the explicit details of the book that I started to read. The main topic was about procrastination being a sin. That's a good quote, don't you think? Tee he he, humor… a friend of mine said I was a nut last night. What was that old Almond Joy jingle? Back to the internet I go... “Sometimes you feel like a nut, sometimes you don’t. Almond Joy’s got nuts, Mounds don’t” I’m doing the running man on my couch! I wonder if my son can teach me the jerk... Lol. You’re going to love the title of this blog and some keywords come to mind from the book… I will share those with you.
Disrespect for the Lord’s time was part of the book’s message which is why I felt guilt and shame from my tweet. How dare I declare that God didn’t create enough hours in the day for me to accomplish my tasks? I need “Melanie hours?” Really – such disrespect towards my creator. Please forgive me, Lord.
Self-worth was part of it. We all know that our self-worth should be placed firmly in our relationship with God. Apparently, I need to allow more God back into my worth, so that I don’t just say “Lord, let me hear your voice for all I am is from you.” I need to live it. I know it’s the God in us that brings value to our lives.
The last thing that I recall the book covering was thievery. When we don’t cherish the time that God has given us, we are basically stealing His time. We are here for God’s purpose and we should be working towards the fulfillment of our calling. If I really valued “my time”, I would value “God’s time” and the gifts that He has given me.
I believe I know God’s calling on my life. I struggle to work at it every day and through my struggle, I overcome. I wonder if they will realize that my procrastination and directly, the candy bar distraction brought about the writing style and title... I guess God made me who I am for a reason (smiling). I will not give up. For all that I am is from God.
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