Every once in a while life changes things. I know I have had a few life changing experiences: moving out and paying my own bills, the passing of my father and the most recent the Tahoe hitting me and my motorcycle on the interstate! I have been in quite a few accidents but this one takes the cake. Three weeks later I am still nursing the wounds of the accident that are still so bad I can’t even start physical therapy! I missed two weeks of school and for the most part I was relegated to my bed for the duration. During my bed rest I had more than ample time to ponder life and the why me questions that were rambling through my head. Upon final review I determined that I had been pretty much living life in the way that I wanted to live it and I am still not where I want to be.
 
So after taking an analytical view of the variables in my life it became a little more than obvious that something had to change. As I had before stated: I have been pretty much living my life the way I wanted to live it and I’m still not where I want to be. So maybe…just maybe it was time for a change. Maybe I shouldn’t be living life the way I want to live. Maybe…just maybe I should be living life the way he wants me to live it! Maybe I do have a purpose. Maybe I am part of His great plan. I have had my fair share of brushes with death and lived to tell about it over and over again.  Where these mere coincidence or were they the warnings that I should have heeded? How many times must I burn myself before I see that the stove is hot? I have finally taken notice of His place in my life and am trying to do my best to put him there!
 
Making God a priority is tough for us as insatiable humans. We yearn for so many worldly things often lose sight of his vision and our purpose in life. I still am not quite sure what my purpose is…but I believe that a testimony is a great start. People say I have a way with words and an audience. If you are part of this audience I want to thank you because a writer’s greatest reward is that someone and I mean anyone reads his writing! I am and have always been a firm believer that prayer changes things. Problem is that like most humans I was a dinnertime, bedtime and crisis prayer only! Nothing wrong with being any of those as blessing your food is awesome, thanking him for making it through the day is outstanding and coming to your savior in crisis is needed. Yet as I was told by this great youth minister “I must learn to make my crisis prayer my everyday prayer!” You can’t just come to God only in time of crisis. Not such an easy task as we have honed that skill throughout our lifetime. We don’t ask our parents for anything until it becomes too overwhelming that we can’t do it ourselves and we definitely don’t ask for directions until we are lost! As Jonah ran from God, I have been running from him as well. Problem is that he is everywhere so how can you run from something or someone who is everywhere?
 
Look I can fight and I am fat with that thought in mind…I am tired of running. I want to be settled and complete. Without Him I am not whole. See we spend so much time looking for our soul mate that we block our blessings by refusing to accept the awesome power our Lord and we forget to focus on the purpose he has in our life. This purpose may not be evident as well as hard to understand, yet the gifts that you have been blessed with can benefit others and I have learned that being a testament is a much easier sell then selling the testimony itself! At this juncture the plan is to once extend my walk with God, strengthen my knowledge of his word and push to live in his will. I am sure that those steps alone will get me where I want to be!