I am explaining to many why my motorcycle bond is so strong as well as why it seems as if my fraternal ties have weakened. I'm also explaining why I'm going to make a better effort to reach out to cats that have come in and out of my life and be a better friend and I know in the past I have deliberately let some of our relationships fall by the wayside. In reflection I have discovered that through my experiences in and out of my Fraternal organizations I have learned a few things:

1. Holding grudges without expressing the sentiments can weigh you down.
2. Good brothers are not created by fraternal bonds but rather can be strengthened by them.
3. Those who take what they have learned in their respective pilgrimage in their fraternity and apply it...will probably be good brothers.
4. We all grow up and things do and will change.
5. Youth is a precarious thing and many things you would or would not have done then; if face with the exact same situation today

Saturday night attended a party. At the end of the night I was in an altercation and not one biker (as there were many there…even tried so much as to break it up). It was the end of the night and cats were either on their grind on some behind or on their way home. Not really big on trying to explain this story but I was on the elevator and a cat got on and bumped into me. He was trying to rush in to flirt with these girls. I told him excuse me and I apologized as if it was my fault. Honestly I wasn’t even sarcastic with it. I was sincere. He said what u say? I apologized again and I couldn't believe he was going there. I got off the elevator and went to someone’s room to get a drink. When I came back to the elevator he was still on there and he went into the conversation again showing off for some girl that he was still on the elevator with. I told him it was not a big deal and then I asked him if he was ok? Then he was like we good so I went to get off the elevator and as The door open to the elevator and I exited out he hit me in the back of the head with a Heineken bottle and then slashed my face with the bottle. Then his boy who was In the lobby tried to jump me. I ended up fighting 3 or 4 people. While getting hit from what seemed like every direction, I zeroed in and caught one of them. Then back up to get some space. Then the cops came around the corner. The cats that jumped me ran off and all the bikers let them. I swear I'm so pissed because I feel like Trouble follows me no matter what and I feel like all those bikers didn't give a phuck about helping a biker. I'm so pissed. I tried my best to avoid it by apologizing and accepting it. I even was trying to get out of the elevator and go home. Somehow I still got into it. Made Me feel like I should have just went on him first but I tried to shrug it off and still caught a bottle. I feel like I let u all down all those people who pay me enough attention and support me in the things that I do. Not so much because I got beat up but more so because I couldn’t find a way to separate myself from the situation. Oh yeah I didn't have on colors. Like it matters. All those bikers knew who I was. But when those cats were jumping me, there was no help. As they ran off down the hallway no one held them up. No one seemed to have anything to say to the cops, no one knew who these guys were. The most help I got was from one of my Masonic brothers who showed up the tail end to ward them off of me as he gave a description and what little he thought knew about them. Funny thing is cats were saying those were the guys from NY! Truly no one comes to a bike party in VA from NY without knowing someone. So someone definitely knows who they are. But this MC community has truly fallen right along with all that I stated in my letter in the beginning. There are good people and bad people in all…I am just searching for the good! Word got to my boys and they were hitting u-turns on the interstate and some of my brothers from other clubs were doing the same. But by the time that they had arrived…all the whack on the scene bikers let these guys get away.

Now everyone is coming to me and asking me what I want to do. How do I want to handle these cats? Let me say it here first. I do not and will not lead a vindictive life! I am just going to get closer to God and have faith that he will continue to bless me as I will follow the path he has laid for me. I know now that as much as I try to do the right thing and live the right way, I can not do it without help. I will never be alone at any event ever again as my club has sworn that although I have been able to roll dolo for the last 10 years…they will never let this happen again. Yet I continue to tell them that this is and was not their fault. At this stage in my life I know that ignorance can not be cured with ignorance. So I will pray that God will guide these misguided fools the same way I am hoping for him to guide me. It sucks that it takes the extreme to wake people up in this world and pull them towards faith…but I am just glad that God saw fit for me to survive this and give me another chance to do it the right way! So with him in the lead…I can not fail. Be on the lookout…because things are about to get much better!

PS…this doesn’t mean I am going to stop being me…it just means that I am going to find out how he wants me to be me. I truly believe that I am a good man and all that I am missing is my allegiance to him. So watch and see…as I truly expect things to turn around…sooner than later.